Thankful and grateful

11/26/19

Today, I am contemplative again. Having this transition time is exciting, like being on a 55 mile-per-hour roller coaster…but it doesn’t stop. On roller coasters there are times I have been scared to death, exhilarated, and fearful all at once. Yesterday, I was really excited to get into telephone sales and began the process of learning about it. But then…but then! Today, my mindset is wavering in fear, trepidation, and lack of desire to move forward in this paradigm shift. I know over the years, I tried to do many things at the same time. I was a massage therapist, and also a massage instructor. I was pulled in both directions. This is how I feel today, like Elastgirl in the Incredibles movies. She can bend and stretch, and be in two places at once. She does move from place to place quickly. She often is pulled in many directions, that she doesn’t know what to do in each of the areas. Today, I got an interview for a nursing job in Spokane. It is for a hospice RN position. It is 40 miles away, one way. I also talked to a massage school, in Post Falls, looking to hire instructors. And yesterday, I learned a bit about telephone marketing and sales. It takes initiative to get into sales. And at the end of the year, most people are not interested in more internet SEO help. Lord, help me discern what is appropriate and will take us to the financial place of peace. Is this possible? I heard a podcast where the speaker was stating that the US relies on money more than other cultures and countries; where they may barter still.  In the past, I have bartered. Our second house, I bartered massage for a down payment on the house we bought. I was pregnant that year. It seemed correct for me at the time. And the realtor was happy. when she received her massage. I am also looking at other ways to make money like copywriting. But I put a few hours into learning, then go to the next thing. My focus is scattered, because I am hoping to find the thing that is right for me, and have it create income. What would I desire to do for work? Work from home, on my computer, and on my phone; only. And have the work be flexible, meet our financial needs, and build up my skills to help those that need it. I would also like to pursue this telephone marketing as well as Wealthwave money management. I do like the concepts of doing financial education. I am completely new at these industries of internet marketing and financial education. Could I possibly build up revenue, quickly to meet our needs? We will be financially ok until mid-December. Lord, can you please show up in a BIG way by then? Thank you so much!

This weekend, R and I went to a gun show he had on the calendar. It was good to see how he sets up his tables. He had the most retail items at the show than ever before. We stayed at his sister’s house, who is single. She was kind and fed us and helped us at the show both days. She doesn’t talk about her adult kids and grandkids. I wonder if they are ok? She eluded to her daughter needing state assistance but could not qualify for it. It sounds like me, and my situation. I did not realize when you quit a job, you did not qualify for unemployment. I may need to rethink asking for help from them, or calling the unemployment office to clarify my case. There was a technicality on the website when I attempted to qualify that needs to be fixed. I went to the church down the road last week and asked for a donation from their food bank. It was so humbling to receive a box of food and a whole chicken. We have given to food bank groups before, but haven’t received a box for loss of a job. I thanked the man who brought food to my truck, with tears in my eyes. I do know the Lord has good for us, and believe that we will be in a place of giving more than we ever have in the future. Thankfully, we have food for two weeks. I got paid for my vacation pay last week. That will last us for a bit.  

I told D last night, who is helping me with Wealthwave education that I pray I would like to not get a job. That life is too short to continue to work for someone else. He agreed and told me he would help me get started on this business idea he has for me. Lord, what do you desire for me to have? Lots of entrepreneur type work, in different areas? Or a job that has timelines and would need to work business on the side.

My wonderful friend and mentor just brought over several bags of goodies for us for Thanksgiving and Christmas. Turkey, ham, drinks, treats, olives, and all from my favorite store, 30 miles away. Wow! Just wow! Such a blessing! I am beyond grateful for their friendship and gifts. They gave us a card of money too. I am waiting until R can take a break so we can look at these items together, and pray over all of it. Thank you, Lord, for leading me through this time with eyes wide open to your goodness and grace. I am so grateful!