Jeri's Journey-the beginning

11/11/19

Today I am having a down day. Stayed in my pajamas until 3:30pm when I took M to work. Last night and the two days prior, it was fun to connect with the Innovative Collective, an organization that helps people reach their highest potential. I spoke out loud more positive desires over my life than I had in a long time. It was magical speaking to so many folks looking towards their futures. I would like to speak to a large audience one day. What is the message I have to say? I know so many things, but what is the message I have inside that needs to come out. I realize I have been boxed in during my life, and I do not want to dwell on mistakes I have made. I want to move forward to a higher potential in my life. One that has no limits. I know this next season will be difficult. I am currently a 50-year-old female that is out of a job. My husband of 26 years is scared of our livelihood. My 18 and 21-year-old children work part-time in the service industry and live at home, and they still like me. We need $4,500/mo for living expenses. What would it take for my kiddos to help with finances until more tangible income becomes apparent? R is building his business. He is into 18 months into creating and sustaining building his business. It would be terrible if he chose to go back to a job because our family is in need of financial stability. It is gaining momentum more all the time. I look forward to helping him in his venture also. It is audacious how much everything costs. If we were single and didn’t have a family to take care of, it wouldn’t be such a challenge. 

I am now looking at goal setting on Sunday night or Monday morning. Today I wrote 5 things I could prioritize this week. If I write out 5 things, I will focus on one item per day. This week, my desire to write goals down for the next day, week, month, 3mo, 6 mo, 9mo, 12 mo, 2 years, and 5 years. When I was in my mindset coaching with Cindy, she asked what I could see myself doing in 5 years…I think it was 5 years. I stated I wanted to write a best selling book by then. And it really gave me the impetus to even think outside of the box I have put myself into most of my life. There is a serious shift in mindset going from a job where you are guaranteed a paycheck. To a life of self-discovery, where you are hustling and challenged for every dollar you receive. In 2019, there are so many talking heads on how to become successful. Carol Tuttle, noted author, and branded mogul of Dress Your Truth speaks about the frequency of the world is extremely high. Which means there are so many amazing thoughts going on, all at the same time. Having a mastermind mentality is more the norm than ever before. For someone like me, who wants to make an impact on the world, that wants to build a mini-empire before my time is up, where do I begin this mindset shift? It is better to make a life than make a living. How does that work, when life is complicated? Where do I fit in?

This blog will troubleshoot my real life going through the process of mindset change which will lead to a career change.  I believe the mindset coaching changed who I was, which set me on a path of losing my job. I was told I had 4 patients’ complaints about me and what or how I spoke to them. The crazy part about this job was I worked with new mommas and babies as a lactation consultant in a hospital, which has elements of being loving, gentle and helpful. There were many times I asked colleagues how to manage my work better, without hurting patient’s feelings. How I could better myself in my work. How to connect with others in the organization to get a certain job done. The only thing that came back to me is “figure it out”. I couldn’t believe how much time it took for me to feel settled in knowing my job well. This “figure it out” mentality did not jive with how I had been trained in other previous healthcare jobs. And the absurdity about the job was my colleagues and I never worked synergistically with each other. Two older lactation consultants treated me unprofessionally from the beginning. When I started my concerns about my poor training or any struggle I shared, I was told I was overly sensitive. This shut me down to ask any more questions. At the beginning of my training, I went home daily in tears, telling my family that I was chastised for getting my work wrong. All that to say, the demise of that hospital lactation consultant job was the best thing that has ever happened to me. I am grateful for this time to reflect on my past and ensure my future will never repeat itself.

Since I went to this two-day innovative conference, my mind is abuzz with ideas for me to make my mark on the world. Starting a copywriting business in labor, delivery, postpartum, and lactation as well as massage, and empowering parents feels like a great fit for me. I will pursue like-minded entrepreneurs that are willing to help me with my needs. I will look forward to meeting the family’s needs with the areas of expertise that I have. And I will be able to make $4,500 month to tangibly meet my family’s real needs. Please ask me how these endeavors are going, and how my writing is going. I will write for 30-120min per day, to hone my craft, and easily create copy that someone will pay me $500/$3,000 for.

I will also put time towards looking at work in the financial industry. I desire to find a niche of work that can create a passive, residual income. A friend shared with me a vision of how this could occur last week, and I will pursue it further.