Jesus carrying me

12/3/19

Lord, today you provided a roof over our head, food to eat, and a friend to share a walk with. Thank you, Lord, what a blessing! B came this morning and asked if I wanted to go walking/hiking while watching eagles. I was so blessed. It has been warmer the last few days, and the gray skies with white clouds and faded sun peaking through was a lovely backdrop to see the magnificent eagles. The eagles’ white tails and heads were difficult to see within the pine tree foliage. The hills across the lake were smattered with white dots. Across the lake, I saw a house with a blue awning, that had a tree right next to the house that was littered with eagles. I could only see white dots, which indicated there was a large family of eagles in the tree. The large, jagged rocks were littered with dead fish carcasses. As we rounded a point of land and larger boulders, the amount of fish we saw increased. Dead pink salmon flesh, fish heads with pointed teeth and fins were splattered around the brown rockery. One brown and a gold eagle in a tree above us sat stoically for several minutes, looking intensely in front of him. I mentioned how “there has to be a metaphor for this”. This meant that if I decide to calm my spirit and look in front of me; the Lord will provide the steps- one at a time.

This last week has been a blur of putting in tons of resumes online. The job description is provided in each job application. I tweak words in my resume and cover letter to match the description. Even though I find I did not make an interview or even a 2^nd look and other times there is silence from the job app company; I am ok with how the job search is going. I had one interview 2 weeks ago but didn’t get that job. It didn’t feel like a correct fit for me. Tomorrow, I drive 45 min one way to do an interview for a home health and hospice organization. They were surprised about my resume and questioned whether I meant to put my resume in. I assured them; it was correct. I told them I am ready for a slower pace and needing some long-term relationships with patients for this next phase of my life. Thursday, I have a phone interview with an online app, Ovia Health. I need to look up their organization so I can understand their place in business. That job I am excited about. Something part-time online seems to be my best job available for me. I can come and go into my life as needed. Make dinner, be there for my family. I LOVE BEING WITH MY FAMILY. It is so sweet I get to hear E and some of her concerns. And M, when he talks 😊 that I am there to hear the moments he shares his heart. I am only with him till next August and want to spend as much time with him as possible; whether he talks or not. Tonight, I will put my resume into the VA. R really wants me to pursue that full-time job, especially if it moves to triage at home. He feels working for the feds is the best option because you can’t get fired 😉.  The benefits would be amazing. Lord, what do YOU have for me? I so desire to be with my family as much as is possible, and then work. And have my work-life balance be an actual reality.

Today, D is supposed to get me his calendar so I can call clients for Ignite Local. It is so close to being started. I am anticipating well to come out of it, even if its low wage to get started. Getting a side hustle that I can do when I want to is so cool. D also invited me to Bellevue to go to a Wealthwave seminar on 12/14. R says I could go. D stated K would allow me to stay with her when she goes. I am excited to learn something completely new in my life. I feel liberated in learning all these new ways of work and my talents. 

Today, R and I got talking marketing for his job. It was fun to discuss areas of his business he hadn’t thought about. I can help him in marketing his business to clients, begin affiliate links, and encourage him not to be concerned about what lands for each client. I want to go to his gun show next week, but the Wealthwave event is the same weekend! I asked him to ask his sister to come help. I think she would. She enjoyed herself last time and would make it a bit easier for him to step away from his booth for a walk or water break. B gave me some suggestions on how to serve our loyal customers and asking how would a customer think before he/she bought from R. What a great way to think about R’s business. We were discussing ways to attract clients by changing his website around a bit. I do pray Lord, that you provide everything in its time. But also, that we make our bills, love much love well, and give to you in tithes and offerings.

Please show us your path of steps, one at a time. Show me in Your Word what I need to focus on. If I have sins that need to be exposed, show me that. Show me what to repent for and to whom I need to repent. Help me be more demonstrative of my love for my family. Put loving, kind words into my mouth. Give me the desire to be more compassionate than I am, and how to love even more deeply than I do. Thank you, Lord, for guiding me in every step along the way.